This month has been pretty great for me to recharge although i have to retake my math module next sem.. sad to say =_= However, it doesn't seem to affect me much maybe due to the fact that why i did not pass this module. Either way.. let things that is suppose to happen.. happen. i mean circumstance in life aren't always so predictable and easy to change... i guess I'll just stand there and let each event hit me like a wave of the Alaskan sea pounding on the rock on the cliff side. Some i guess will just form me into shape yet others weaken the foundation.
Change happen fast, silently and tend to be at a large scale... for anything smaller to us it not even considered change due to our insensitivity. Ppl always say anticipate change... look out for the small detail.. for the devil is in the details.. This is true.. but how long can we keep it up? Eventually we will feel exhausted, we will feel the monotonous repetitions... building up a strong emotion.. sometimes it turns out to be anger.. while at other times it turns out to be sadness.. both being so inter related yet different :/ irony huh. life is all abt irony? or is it just that they bounce back and forth of the extremes to maintain this constant balance.
Gotta get tougher to face this harsh world... yet not wanting to let go of wadeva ability i have left to empathize with everything, everyone, and every situation. Yet it turns out why bother when it results in just more self harm.... Results of an action is wad ppl care most about... bullshit about the process being important when you just blunder this 1 time in the world it will render u useless... Empathy is something what ppl tend to put aside as they grow up.. though some ppl are always so nice... but then again issit for a reason? masks taken off and putting it on again.. all so often till eventually we forget what we really are.. some time we have to fake a smile but being our true selves will just lead to more problems... life goes.on....
guess by reading till this line meant that some have read the post or at least part...
so pardon my lengthy retarded post.. but doing this keeps me in reality check.. hope it does for others. alr gonna go help out in cooking ciaos!~
Kuan :D