Hello ppl, Long time no blog sia.. bad bad.. haha
Posted by kuanada Friday, November 20, 2009 at 9:12 PM
Hello ppl, Long time no blog sia.. bad bad.. haha
Posted by kuanada Friday, November 6, 2009 at 9:57 AM
Hey every 1 how u guys have u been ? haha great i hope :)
For me. Its has been such a pleasant month for so many things have happened regardless of outcomes. Which i do not noe :/ hahah! i did learn many things.
School. has started and i m glad to say i have changed for the better. Although the motivation factor is still unknown :/ just my inner self wanting to start up that rusty empty car of mine. I am first and fore most i find it thankful that i have so many wonderful friends who are so understanding. So much so that they are helping me in my everyday life also. lOL!
thank god for all these ppl in my life especially some. regardless.
Posted by kuanada Friday, October 9, 2009 at 5:20 AM
This month has been pretty great for me to recharge although i have to retake my math module next sem.. sad to say =_= However, it doesn't seem to affect me much maybe due to the fact that why i did not pass this module. Either way.. let things that is suppose to happen.. happen. i mean circumstance in life aren't always so predictable and easy to change... i guess I'll just stand there and let each event hit me like a wave of the Alaskan sea pounding on the rock on the cliff side. Some i guess will just form me into shape yet others weaken the foundation.
Change happen fast, silently and tend to be at a large scale... for anything smaller to us it not even considered change due to our insensitivity. Ppl always say anticipate change... look out for the small detail.. for the devil is in the details.. This is true.. but how long can we keep it up? Eventually we will feel exhausted, we will feel the monotonous repetitions... building up a strong emotion.. sometimes it turns out to be anger.. while at other times it turns out to be sadness.. both being so inter related yet different :/ irony huh. life is all abt irony? or is it just that they bounce back and forth of the extremes to maintain this constant balance.
Gotta get tougher to face this harsh world... yet not wanting to let go of wadeva ability i have left to empathize with everything, everyone, and every situation. Yet it turns out why bother when it results in just more self harm.... Results of an action is wad ppl care most about... bullshit about the process being important when you just blunder this 1 time in the world it will render u useless... Empathy is something what ppl tend to put aside as they grow up.. though some ppl are always so nice... but then again issit for a reason? masks taken off and putting it on again.. all so often till eventually we forget what we really are.. some time we have to fake a smile but being our true selves will just lead to more problems... life goes.on....
guess by reading till this line meant that some have read the post or at least part...
so pardon my lengthy retarded post.. but doing this keeps me in reality check.. hope it does for others. alr gonna go help out in cooking ciaos!~
Kuan :D
Posted by kuanada Friday, September 18, 2009 at 2:38 AM
LOL my 1 month 1 post is seriously taking effect well till it becomes 2 month 1post .. ZZZ haha anyway these 2 month have been really fun for me.. i went back for training... finished my exam.. my exam was f^ed up .. =_= I got B B C+ D+ D+ F!!! FOR FAIL F FOR MATH LOL... now need to retake my supp paper on wed..:( nvm shall revise and do well for it get it done once and for all :P i dun even wanna be in candice class for math man... LOL hahaha anyway after the 2 chalets have taken place for tis month.. it was ALL GREAT :D now to juggle my time.. training is almost every day.. and really spreaDing my self quite thin. :S and my social interaction has drastically shrunk due to the amount of time spent on turning up for training and resting like PIG like some ppl claim i am.. LOL :S but thank god i still have this group of friends that i always hang out wif and often go out wif :D so yea life ain't too bad...
All along i knew lives aren't smooth sailing... however, i have nvr personally felt it so bad that i find smooth sailing totally an UNDERSTATEMENT... I have always this concept at the back of my mind the faster i grow up the faster i see the uglier side of human.. now it has turn out to be ppl close to me.. so close that u guys can never imagine.. things so ugly that even it is depicted by a famous artist. it would still turn out all too crappy.. but this also really reminded me big time on smth. Humans aren't perfect... they seek perfection so much that they drift from it instead.. thus we should seek god.. for he is perfect for he will guide us...
As i m typing this post.. i m buying macs for my bro just coz i ate his hot fudge sunday... lol... wad a spoilt ass going around throwing tantrum and messing up the whole house. So uncalled for... gave him a good beating . but still violence nvr solve anything so i did both :D hahaha
oh shall sign off now... gonna eat my MEGA! mac spicy
Vincent Kuan :P
Posted by kuanada Friday, August 14, 2009 at 11:36 PM
Wow, it's been awhile i have such a day where i m free :D However, it has left me with a void to fill up with activities. Recently skool has been passing pretty fast, in fact it's changing day by day. Not the same skool i know since day 1. I guess we have to come to a point of time where ppl have to really choose their friend's carefully huh? haha. after all u dun see urself old and white headed with every 1 as ur close friends, for some are just passerby in life. Each bringing a unique event and fair share of emotion that will flood you. This alone makes me treasure them quite a bit despite the fact they might not matter to me or even reappear in my life again.
This week school has not done much except revising hardcore for exams, tho we gave ourselves a small break and go to the movies and watch some local show. Pretty ok... but i din really expect much from a local produced movie. haha. it kept emphasizing that there is not shortcut in life.. is there really no shortcuts in life? it led to me to think, short cut long cut? it all how u perceive it,as the amount of work u may put in may seem alot to you but when others sees it, it's very little just because they have put in much more effort. However, since when effort guarantees results.However, the movie had it's good points like the director i guess effectively played with it's audience emotions by having a start as light hearted story then till the end the movie ends off with a touching event. Emotions have all along been a very powerful thing in our lives. In fact it has override many decisions irrationally just coz of the emotion at e point of time. Controlling it is easier said than done. however, we all have different triggers that cause that kaboom in our minds.
oh well shall end off such a boring post haha. cya gonna go for svc. :D
Kuan :P
Posted by kuanada Tuesday, August 11, 2009 at 7:50 AM
Decided for once to skip class and go out meet jy and some tomato head for breakfast and chill out.. end up met more new friend :D syah haha funny guy sia.. we joke abt the you tube vids, play pool and all that HaHa.. end up go dinner and home and now resting.. haiz tml long day again of studying
Posted by kuanada at 6:47 AM
I have always nag how time isn't enough yet still have time to do every in time.. some how.. for that i thank god... now that ndp is over.. time to gear up for studies :( thank god that it ended before my exams.. and sudden flush of emotions, and flashbacks came. It came as if day 1 of my life where i was brought to this world happy. As i grew older the smile on my face faded away day by day, yet till i met you who brought joy to my life, who led me to persevere. How ever much i have disappointed you i would only ask for your forgiveness. However, i know 1 right does not make a wrong right again. So i have to face the root of the problems that led to 1 by 1..
Enough on reflecting on my life. Then again Ndp was a killer man.. AWESOME! tho i did not make it for all practice and punctually and lagging in terms of playing skills, but i had an awesome time. For it has led me to learn many new knowledge and all. In fact i felt i was the biggest winner of all for i have learned so many new stuff. enjoying so much during then despite feeling tired.. wet .. and sweaty during. i have never regret from day 1 in joining strikeforce and ndp :D even tho it crashed wif many of my schedules and projects, still i blessed by god. for such wonderful and understanding classmates and team mateS! :D
Alright, shall stop here.
Vincent kuan